till death do us part.... but if are dying first.. then i take it back...

"till death do us part" A common phrase you hear when someone says their wedding vows... I think in the past, vows are sacred.. now.. it's just something that I'll say.. doesn't hurt me if i change my mind... There's so many things that went through my mind today... (yar. not usual for a bimbo) I don't know what should I put in my wedding vows in the future.. but i think this phrase.. is complete bull~ Look at how many broken marriages are there around you... How many of them really are together till they died... I always believe in this phrase becos when you really love someone deep enough ... you will be willingly to be together till the end of the world.. It's always on the TV... the old auntie and old uncle.. holding hands walking in the the park.. the grand mother feeding grand father.. worse.. the old woman cleaning his husband ass when he becomes immobile... worse clean her husband's mother's ass... why are these not on the telo? I think phrases sometimes inspire you.. or can somethings really change your mind about something... I think the old woman would never tell her husband.. you can't walk... go away! or maybe he has no hair.. she would not say.. go away! you ugly bald man... worse if he has cancer .. or even just maybe a wart or his legs are swelled up or just a simple flu... I doubt she would say... Go away~! you have disease~!! I don't know about you peeps.. but sometimes you would wish you are not the one who need to deal with hospitals, clinics or even skin problems... Imagine you are perfectly fine but you have to go to the hospital.. or go see the doctor... worse! sometimes you have to be a clown even though you can also feel the pain on the patient or even the cold walls in the consultation room... just not even say the time wasted to do these.... I don't know the reason for me to do all the visiting and go hey I'm farking stupid bimbo.. but i do wish for it to happen to me when I'm down, sick or even paralyse... but i was wrong.. i was very wrong... i just don't know why my heart shatters so easily.. I'm quite disappointed... a sudden breeze of insecurity... Who is going to take care or me when i have a flu? who is going to back me up even i made the most silliest mistake in the world? and still go good job... you are so silly... who is going to back me up when a group of friends mocked me? or even worse burn my finger? or who is just there to say.. hey stop it leh... i must say most of the time i swallow huge insults... and i really hope till now i will forget it.. i really wished i had some memory probs... but o' well.. who would be there to say 'hey don't be upset.. you can't have seafood... I'll do the same...' and who would say 'hey what's that? let go see the doctor togets immediately or tomorow' ... or the typical one.. no matter happens to you I'll be here... I'll be here waiting for you... or you die.. i die... I'll be here till you return... I wish I'm the one having the cancer... ALL THESE ARE BULL~! behind those phrases are.. If you are sick you farking hell, fark off.. and stay away from me don't affect me.. i don't want to die yet.. you want to die.. you can go first... and where did till death do us part go? wheres the I'll go vegetarian for you... where did all these go? I've learnt alot of things from this phrase.. especially hop i becomes strong and more selfish to just think about myself... till the next pimple do us part..